Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Nothing else matters
Anw, side tracked, i'm sorry i couldn't be there for you i guess that's the worse feeling to feel. I hope you're in a happier place now and i really wish i could have taken better care of you when you're still around. I'll always always remember you no matter what. My little naughty girl.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Older each day
School's gna start in like a few weeks time, so glad that i managed to scrape through another semester. Somehow i'm not dreading school. Hehe.
Sometimes when i think back, i guess the time doesn't really matter it's the quality that does. And that feeling doesn't seem to be that case... which is probably something good now i guess? Great day great night. Off to make my heart go dugeun degeun again!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Honestly, i feel really lucky to have some people in my life that stood by me and offered so much help. Some that i even hurt before but yet still stay truthful and sweet to me. And i'll never forget the words they said to me.
ahhhhhhhhhh i'm just so happy tonight over the slightest thing.
I'll be happy for you.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
It's not hurt, it's anger.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Such is life
When you lose something, you gain some. And i think i really gained some really important people in life that if i have to go through this again to gain these people, i would do it all over again.
So thankful and grateful about these people who enter my life and helped me so much.
And i need to start sleeping normally ! Everyday i sleep damn late and wake up in the afternoon, this should only happen during the holidays. And even though i rly like doing this, but idk why but i'm quite sick of it cause i haven't been seeing my family for quite some time. Everytime i reach home, they are all sleeping. And i'm getting excited about so many things in my life right now!! Can't wait for everything to happen. Hehehehe.
Sometimes, i really miss you especially how we always do things at home and outside alone. Especially the weekends when i always used to look forward to, i can't stand it when i stop looking forward to my weekends. But thank god now my plans on the weekend always makes me excited so at least i won't miss you or think about you so much. And i really feel sorry that i have to cut off all contacts right now, because thats the only way i can do to help myself move on. I refuse to move on at the start, but seeing how much you refuse to be with me, i guess i'm being forced to move on. And i know that, once i've totally moved on from you, we can be friends again and it's really going to be perfect this time because there won't be unnecessary emotions involved.
Oh my family finally has a car! Mitsubishi, should be lancer but it's soooooo cool i can't wait to have my license now, i guess having a car really motivates! And my mum will drive me around with it, I AM SO EXCITED. But actually i'm being driven almost every night now, cute and funny chauffeur who comes and pick us up and fetch me home almost every night. It's so funny. Okay i'm off to have lunch and study, then i'll meet my friends for a short break! Everything happens for a reason, this is life, so suck it up and move along.
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Maybe i realize my mistakes a little too late, maybe i did all these things a little too late. But at least i've learnt. And i just need someone, anyone to realize and appreciate that.
Exams are really nearing, and i need to study hard this sem. After exams then i'll be able to do anything that i want.
At least i'm busier now, and faced the fact that its really over between us. Three years, looking at all our photos made me realize we've been through too much. Really way too much. But i guess it doesn't really matter anymore. Someone told me to stop hoping, told me to inject opposing thoughts and thats what i'm doing every single day. It's painful, really painful, but he said thats the fastest and hardest way to move on.
I'm really sorry for whatever i've done but i know that i can't have the chance to make it better. But thanks for entering my life, thanks for making all these wonderful memories between us.