Hate or Love

Being in love is so fucking tiring. I bet every couple would agree w me. (Y)

You love the person for everythg he/she did, but you hate the person for evrythg he/she did. LOL.

Nvm, I've alr make sure that my old self will be back. (:

It's like a criminal won't admit the things he did, just keep denying evrything. When police dig up a few evidences he still can continue denying but when found too many evidences to charge the criminal. He then will finally admit, but he will say some lame excuses or nice yet pathetic things to actually make the whole crime sounds like not his fault or try his best to make his punishment not that serious. If this is what every guy is good at then it's so disgusting. And sorry to say they are just messing w the wrong girl.

There will be changes

Called Brien and he taught me how to fix my thumbdrive. Haha. Thanks! (: He's still soooo cute. Awwww. Anyw when i saw the songs in my thumbdrive i thot only a few songs, until when i scroll down. O.O I think got reach 100 songs. I cannot believe he actually put so many songs into my thumbdrive. :D

I hate talking on the phone w bf. Ever since last time till now it has been the same. Guess such things can't be changed. When you make a mistake in the past, tell yourself you would not allow the same mistake to happen in the present or in the future. I don't understand why we can't be those cute little sweet couples out there, talk on the phone w all those random conv, sweettalks and laughing about. Is that why we're special? Because if that's so, i rather be normal. -.- Now i know, phone calls are for convenience during quarrel, cause it's so troublesome to quarrel through sms or msn right? Calling would save a lot of trouble. (Y) Too bad, i doubt I'll answer any phonecalls from you.

No school ytd, actually have which is CDS but lazy. Haha. So first week of school is alright actually. Very slack. This is the first time I'm feeling nice for school reopen bcus can meet up w clique more often than ever! :D Gonna meet Ker later! See ya.

First day of a new sem

Hey! Let's announce the good news, will be having 1 month study break before end sem due to the youth Olympic games, thank youuuuu! Haha.

Thursday I went down to lepak w tavis for a little while since I damn long nv lepak. Friday went to newton to pay my stupid fines w my mum but she asked babe to acc me -.- so we sat @ starbugs while waiting for babe to prepare. Met him and ate at food centre after settling everything. Walked around orchard, played wii and caught this movie call kick-ass it's kinda lame but not bad overall cause of this little 13 girl in the movie. Real awesome and inspiring. Haha. Ate dinner @ botak jones area @ the back and went home after that.

Saturday woke up in the afternoon prepared and went down to bedok south sec for his soccer game and wow! They won their v first game 3-2 and it was so exciting I swear. Went ep to buy cooking ingredients and went home to start cooking lesson no.1 haha. Turns out to be edible! How awesome. Did panic and got lost for a few times but my teacher was there to calm me down. Haha! Watched manure vs mancity match but fell asleep halfway. Decided to sleep before waking up and watch chelsea's match later on and they lost! Muahahaha.

Sunday worked at clarke quay w Derrick and it'll be my last day over there. It's nice to know that all of them will miss me. Derrick has been real sweet by giving me free water and treating me ljs for dinner. :) I'll definitely miss all of them and I know they'll ask me out whenever possible! :D

Had the first day of school and it was so tiring alr. Timetable sucks for me, 9am lessons from Monday to Friday except for weds. WTF right they really purposely diedie want me wake up early. Zzz. Had lunch @ tampmall cause we were desperately finding somewhere w aircon. Haha. Will try my best to study hard during year3. :)

I'm here to blog before i go to school within 9hours. zzz Fuck tp srsly.
Okay like lazy i think tomorrow. HAHA

BORED!

Wa like many days nv update. Monday i went down to meet him since i really nothing to do. Ate at yishun area and stayed over since he don't have to book in at night and will be alone at home w/o his mum. =/ went to shop for soccer boots and standard, red. -.-
Sometimes some things you do until too over, doesn't really give pple a v good feeling hor. Haha.
Went back in the morning, slept for a while before going to work at bloody hell suntec. First time working w Wanzhen and i think i scared her in the shop -.-
Work w Brien ytd and he's damn cute i swear. LOL. But shitz that will be the first and last time I'm gonna work w him alr. ): Nvm maybe i go visit the shops often. Haha! I quit until damn sudden i swear.
Time table is out today and aye fuck one they all purposely put morning tutorial is force me to go school one. zzz.
Meeting friends and paying the bloody fine tmr. Tsk so irritating.
I lazy type alr, feel like sleeping.

Bye.

When you have became the same

On the way to butter factory!

Soccer @ Kallang Cage, that's RenHao btw. Haha.

Alright back again.

Friday accompanied babe to SGH for his stupid appt and once again I'm NOT ALLOWED to watch. I v fat meh?! Will take up a lot of space meh!? Just wanna stand one side and watch what. Stupid asshole. Had porridge @ Chinatown and we took bus to TP. Zzzzzzzz. Paid the stuid $101.50 school fees. ARGH I'll forever hate school i swear, it always gives me trouble unnecessarily and makes me upset by giving me timing that force me to wake up in the fucking early morning. Idk why i so suay in TP. Always give me sucky timetable, give me sucky subjects, give me sucky lectures, give me sucky classes. I think TP also don't like me, nevermind 1 more year only. I LUN!

Went home rest like 5-10mins? And we prepared for badminton @ Simei CC. Wa i tell you is damn shag! Damn long never touch the racket and that idiot keep making me laugh until i cannot play properly. & he ALWAYS purposely make me run!! Zzzzz. Bcus my racket handle wore out alr, so the color will drop and when you sweat and hold the handle your hand will turn blue. HAHA.

And then he saw his hand he say looks like Avatar and started making the "woooo weeeee!!" sound. CB I STILL RMB DAMN CLEARLY. And w actions!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA Wtf man.

Had dinner and went home. (Y)

Saturday soccer 10am @ kallang cage. TIRED! Bcus ytd night i couldn't sleep and my boyfriend, careful k cause the next text will come UNEXPECTEDLY. Lol. After soccer cabbed down to chongpang for lunch and went his house. Slept for that 30mins and he v smart, he put his leg in the foot massager and lie on the floor and sleep. (Y) Woke up and prepare to go Sao Mu w his relatives. Ate at his ahma house. OMG YOGGYBEAR!!!!!! Idk why she don't like me. ): I'm like trying to speak dog to her but i think she just thinks I'm crazy bcus of my retarded actions, it's like I'm trying to ask a kid to come over. LOL. Got a lift from his aunt to Sengkang and we went home to sleep for 1hr30mins!! Woke up and prepared for clubbing. See how much sleep I'm lacking of! Haha. Went butter factory that night and it was awesome w the girls. (Y) They were high and fun and we really enjoyed. However, there's a lot of things that really dirty my eyes. What a turn off. And somehow, at that moment, someone appeared in my mind. =X Reached home like 5am and slept till next day for work.

Worked @ Clarke Quay today w Jojo for awhile and she's still so cute and hot! Haha. Anyw that will be all. I wanna fully enjoy my last week of holidays!! Guys! Let's come out for a gathering! :D

Shag

I fucking tired and can't understand those who sleep 4 hrs avg per day. Zzz.
Talked to Shanice a lot about life stuff today and it was really nice, it let us actually go think about future and also sharing of experiences. She also said that she never believed in pure friendship between female and male. Although I believe it can happen bcus that's how me and Shawn maintain our friendship but yeah somehow it's true and understandable why she would come down to that statement.

Hmm how I wish I could like this w my boyfriend hor hor hor hor. Hehe the hint v obvious la hor hor hor. Hahah.

Actually I have a lot of questions with no answers but I guess everyone is the same right. Maybe I need to lepak and slowly sink into my very own thoughts.
Friends...are hard to come by but easy to go. Say is must cherish and treasure but some are really not worth to do so because they themselves don't even treasure themselves. Pui!

Okay fucking tired. Bye

Iphone

It's damn damn damn damn damn nice to have my heater back.
Okay let's do some reflection ok.
First of all, those lazy asses out there who have proper heater at home that allows u to bath in warm water during cold days, APPRECIATE IT! Thank god everyday you have warm water.
Because i understand the feeling of bathing in cold water and the trouble to boil hot water when it's really freezing outside. ):
And when i came home from work usually I'll just boomz lie on my bed and nua for at least 30mins but today! EVERYTHING CHANGES.
Whoa.
I came home and the first thing my dad told me is "HEATER HAO LIAO" & my answer was "OKAY! I GO BATH NOW!"
And i went into my room put down my bag and took clothes and IMMEDIATELY WENT TO THE TOILET. How shiokkkk is that.... i felt the warmm warmm waterrrrrrr. Wooooooo.

Okay awesome. That's all.
HAHA.

Today work was fucking awesome i swear. Was working w jessie and yuanling this 2 siao char bo. They really IMBA CRAZY IMBA ZI HIGH IMBA NOISY. Disturb each other like hell, laughed at each other like hell. The most classic thing is they tried to teach me how to dance, okay i learn fast because i not paiseh. HAHA but what's most classic is when jessie teach me halfway she zi high den she say "OR I DANCE SHUFFLE LA!" & she started dancing one fucking fucking retarded+funny shuffle right in front of me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. I srsly can never forget the way she danced shuffle.
When MJ song play, she also do the stupid fucking retarded moonwalk. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I was laughing my ass off srsly.
So the whole afternoon i was learning some clubbing dance moves. LOL. Then rest was just laughing laughing and laughing. Jeremy dropped by to pass key and WALAO 4 pple in the shop is insane.
Everybody talk like coffeeshop area and laugh like our grandma house and do stupid actions like our own house. LOL.
Today is memorable i swear. Okay supper time. :D

The world never stop turning

Okay hello everybody! I'm back!

Let's update..

Thurs went over to babe's house to have 3/4 vege as dinner. HAHA. Then stayover.

Friday nothing much he spent the whole of his bloody afternoon fixing PES2010 football jerseys -.- and we had sakura for dinner. Aiyoyo! It's damn nice i swear.

Saturday we went for his soccer match in the afternoon and it was drizzling and all so i waited under the block after the 1st half of the game. ):

Went back home to bath and rest, after that went to coffeeshop to watch the fucking soccer match between ManUtd and Chelsea. Knn ccb i dulan dulan dulan i tell u.

Went back to my house and watched tv till quite late. Boil hot water just to bath... See how sad my life is now. LOL.

Sunday woke up w prata as brunch and then went for work @ clarke quay. Went back home and had a short supper downstairs my house. Went back home and the war just started.

Till today late afternoon it just ended

Went out to have porridge steamboat w daniel and kandis as a advanced celebration for daniel's birthday. It's nice to hang out w the retard daniel. LOL. He always make me laugh like hell.

Happy belated birthday to briancheokk!

And happy advance birthday to daniel!

:D

Lepakk!

Can't make up your mind mind mind

I need to play basketball or anything can make me vent all my anger. This time blasting music is not even sufficient.
I'm getting impatient, I'm focusing on the bad points. When you say these, did you ask yurself WHY?! So you expect me to be patient like FOREVER?! There will be a day when I'll explode. Okay what's the point of saying these because YOU STILL WON'T UNDERSTAND. You think i never think from your shoes? I know how you feel and everything. EVER PUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOES?! I have to be alone most of the time, independent would be the right word. I have to be understanding, i have to be patient. I have to be this this this that that that. I'M TRYING ALSO, YOU'RE TRYING YOUR BEST IM NOT?!
Why i cannot be truthful to you? Don't hide anything and just express all my feelings to you.
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. A lot of questions right?
ASK YOURSELF LA. Even if i answer your question for you, YOU WON'T BE SATISFIED WITH THE ANSWER AND YOU WILL KEEP ASSUMING AND ASSUMING AND THEN YOU WILL KEEP DEFENDING AND DEFENDING AND THEN YOU ARE NOT LISTENING TO ME AGAIN.

When can you sit down keep quiet and listen me to pour everything out? Everytime i haven't even say finish you will have A LOT to add on.
If to you I'm being impatient now den SUA i speechless.
I alrdy being SUPER PATIENT until I CANNOT ALRDY.
Okay nvm, u also won't get it.

What's the point of saying SO MUCH when the person you're trying to pour out to don't get it? Right? SO i chose to SHUT UP and just listen to YOU.
Good job bev. Good job. Idk what happen to you alrdy.
I cannot rmb myself being straightforward and evrything alrdy.
Maybe it's time for me to change as well.

Tomorrow I'll just lie down and star at the sky and maybe they will give me answers that i need.
I'm not relying on cigarette bcus i don't want to disappoint anyone. (Y)!!!!!!!
bye