Mkt Proj.

Went to school today to do Mkt proj with the rest of the group members. Went to CGH first to accompany dar get his medicine. Then when I'm leaving soon, saw my dad at home. Was shocked at first, then i can expect why is he at home already. He's sick, he got gastric again. Sighs. Old illness already.

Went to Mensar to buy chicken cutlet rice with dar, then saw someone twice, which is damn unlucky, make my eyes so pain after that. LOL. Then passed Sab her card. (: Did proj all the way till 3.45 like that, then they went for R.A. lecture while i went off to meet dar. Went home after that.

Bought bathing sand and the bathing box for Bell. Now I'm doing my best to keep Bell happy and healthy. I really don't want the same incident to happen again. & i seriously keep missing Pearl, i miss him so much. It's like my memories of him keeps flashing back. The time when the first time i bought him & Bell. Then both of them slept in the box when i got home. The first time i carried Pearl.. he was so light and he didn't bite me. He always like to stay still in my hand, keep cleaning himself.
Also... i can remember the day he passed away in the container.. his whole body was so hard and stiff and he didn't move at all. I just wish i have some magic power or what, so i can bring him back to live..
Today we bought a new bottle to store the water, because the previous water bottle is straight and quite high, so Pearl didn't manage to drink the water. Now i changed it cause i hope Bell is able to drink water and not happen to be like Pearl.

My dad say he wanna buy more hamsters for me, maybe 2 more. (: So Bell can have more companions. Saturday we're going to see hamsters. :D Thanks dad.

Went to Watsons to look at those makeup stuff. Then dar bought something for his face. LOL. Went home and clean Bell's house. Prepared everything and put it in the kitchen. Starting he kept going to the bathing box and he keep running around, i think he's a little happy.
If only Pearl could see what we had added into the cage...
Pearl.. Can u hear me ? Today we added in bathing sand and box, we also changed the water bottle. We also clean the cage already. Both are in blue colour. (: How are you doing now ? I hope you're doing well okay ? I love you.. I'll talk to you another time.

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Rolling Love.

Been missing Pearl these few days. Bell looks very lonely, and we are intending to buy a new hamster, i don't know what my brother will do when he finds out. ):
I'll get better each day, Thanks Sab, GF, Mei, JINMAY, bird & Dar for your concerns and consoles. (:
He's not gone, i know that, he's forever in my heart.
The day he passed away, makes me wonder about my precious dog, April. I really don't know what i will do without her. My mum said that after April, she don't intend to buy another dog. Sighs. Without April, is like one part of my family is gone. To me, she's like my daughter/sister. :D I tell her my problems, i cry to her, disturb and also played with her. She's like a part of me now and she's my family. I really cannot imagine if one day she would passed away just like how Pearl did. )':

These few days had been watching Rolling Love. Not a VERY funny show yet a nice and romantic show i guess. Went to school today and had cramps in the afternoon. Mandy said wanna eat Sakae sushi on Thursday. Woooo! LOL. Can't wait can't wait. I hope darling would have enough money on that day ? (:(:(:(: Darling can we go can we go can we go ??????? :D
PRETTY PLEASEEEEEEEEEE okay ? xD i love you. LOL! So can we go ???? ^^
Ended school early, i don't know why everytime i do R.A. tutorial, i don't understand. When in school, teacher go through the tutorial then i will understand. LOL.
I'm working hard on R.A. now !! :D

Tomorrow no MF tutorial yet have to reach school by 10am for MF proj. Zzzzzz. So early, and the next lecture/lesson is like at 4PM PEOPLE !!!! It's like as if we're spending HALF THE DAY doing MF tutorial. This group discussion better be a good one.

OH OH ! & Before we all (me,Sab,Bird&Mandy) went for R.A., we went to the bookshop cause Bird buying some stuffs for a girl & i forgot who is she. Anyway, then she saw something really cute ! It's small little little cards ! LOL. Very very nice !! :D We spent lotsa time there and had laughters too.
I bought for Sab, Mandy, Joan, BF, GF, & SHAWN!! Shawn must be very happy cause I've finally got something to give him. LOL. Bird was crazy, she bought 10 cards. MADNESS. LOL.

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I loved Pearl

& now Pearl's gone, forever. Leaving Bell alone. I'm sorry Pearl, I'm really sorry. He's very special to me, even if there are hundreds or millions over hamsters that looked like him, he's still different from all of them, and i know that very well.

Not feeling well today, having cramps and i just came out from the toilet not long ago. Now I'm using my laptop and missing Pearl as i looked at his pictures. He's so adorable you know. Just a small little hamster yet cause of me, he passed away just like that. I just wished he could come back..
PEARL !!!!!!!! he was our favourite hamster and also our first hamster. I don't want to throw his body away, in fact, i wanna keep it forever with me. However, the smell will get stronger each day and i know that i have to let go.
Maybe some people think that I'm exaggerating, because he's just a hamster. But he's not just a hamster to me. He's a very very very cute hamster, even my cousin came to my house, she first saw him, was "sooo cute !!". Everyone thinks that he's cute.

He's really special to me. Never bite me that often, even if he bites me, it won't be painful also. & he always stay still on my hand. Got once, he slept on my cousin's hand also, damn cute.
Now i don't know what to do.
Yesterday my brother almost hit me cause of Pearl, i was damn scare at that time. He kept scolding me with vulgarities and everything. I know it's my fault, maybe even when he hit me i will feel better.

I'll do whatever it takes to have Pearl back, he's just a baby, a small little hamster with a very very precious life. I'm sorry Pearl, I'm seriously sorry. I've regetted and if only i could turn back the time...
I love you Pearl..
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Death.

Someone tell me what to do. Zzzzz, my hamster is dying, one of it.
Today dar saw his butt have shit but it's not coming out, like somehow constipation. So we tried to take it out, by using cotton bud with water on it. So after that, my hamster started to act very weak, like as if it's dying soon. Just now i saw it sleeping in a weird way, like flip over. So i was very worried, worried that it's dying really soon. T.T I don't want my hamster to die.

Someone help me. Whoever had a hamster before, does your hamster have shit in their butt and not coming out yet ? Please, someone guide me or tell me what should i do....
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Weekends

Watched Wall-E on Friday night. A very nice show. LOL Very cute and funny. Hahaha. Was watching Initial-D yesterday night, but i was very tired, so when it's disc 2 that time, i told dar that i wanna sleep already. LOL.
Nothing much these few days, later will be doing E-learning.
Stomach cramps started today ! ): So painful.
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POM Presentation

Today was the presentation, i did what I'm suppose to do yesterday and i actually did more than that. I studied on Leading and i somehow memorized the presentation. xD
Was damn cold and nervous when presenting but yeah, this was our first time and so teacher gave us quite a number of tips to improve on.

Formal wear, everyone look so smart. Jinmay look damn cute ! LOL. Sabrina damn tall, so she look like a business woman. Hahaha.
Oh yah, happy anniversary to Sabrina and her BF ! (: Hope they are having fun right now.

Today Bell bit me, *ouch* , really hurts cause my finger actually bleed a little. But afterall he's my pet, so maybe I'll try again next time. (: Not like dar ! He totally isolated Bell when he's the one who chose Bell. He don't like Bell already, so bad right ! LOL.

I have to start studying soon after i blog finish. Microecons first ! :D
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PEARL & BELL :D

Pearl hamster. (: Named it pearl too. xD
Snapshot ! So cute right ! I bought 2 hamsters, another one was a campbell, black colour. Aiyerrr that hamster bite me and bf, It's very sharp and quite pain. LOL. So i didn't took picture of Bell. Maybe next day or what.

Today didn't go for lecture, went to school to do proj. Was late, sorry guys ! & i felt really guilty not doing anything. But luckily you guys gave me the ppt to do. & i hope nothing will go wrong tomorrow. Joel must chill okay. LOL. Really very sorry.
Did the whole ppt, like 20 slides ! LOL. & i had a headache after doing it, and super tired. LOL.
Tmr have to wear formal code, like YUCKS. I feel very uncomfortable. xD

Tmr have to go study already ! (:
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HAMSTER!!

Today went to school for M.F. Sab didn't come cause she waited for her bus for damn long, me too ! I waited for number 5 like 30mins ?! Wanted to cab down, then it came. LOL. Reached school a little late, saw Benjy at the bus stop. Thanks for the sweet ! & next time maybe you should teach me how to eat sweet in a more professional way. LOL. ( he said the way i eat sweet v noob, like wth right ? LOL )

Had M.F tutorial and after that we wanna surprise Joel because it's his birthday today!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL !
But i guess it's not much of a surprise since they say they think that Joel saw the cake alrdy right ? LOL. Our class bought for him a cake and a present, i think it's a wallet. LOL. Then after celebrating met bf at mushroom then cab home. Stupid cousin didn't turn up anyway.

Today stayed at home for a while then went off to buy my formal wear. Went to G2000 to buy one long sleeve shirt and a skirt. Damn it's like so expensive. Saw Qirong & JinMay ! LOL! That funny girl i saw her and her reaction was "oh why u over here?". LOL! or something like that, then bf say what kind of reaction is that. Normally people would say like "EH hello ! So qiao !" LOL! So we looked at each other's formal wear and her's is like sort of translucent. LOL! Woooo jinmay sexy uh. LOL. Then i say i wanna go eat already, she actually said i so fat still eat ! & i say it applies to her too actually. LOL.

Went to buy Taiwan Chicken, so long since I've even taste it ! LOL.

Then i went to buy HAMSTER today !!! OMG la. LOL. My dad was okay and quite supportive with it. So i went to 201 bought 2 hamsters !! Woooo ! 1 white & 1 black. Named it Pearl & Bell/Bel. LOL. Bought the food, cage, and necessary stuff. Mum came back and started nagging nagging nagging, scold scold scold. So me, bf and dad just kept quiet. LOL! My dad didn't even bother. LOL. Tmr got lecture in the morning, will i be able to wake up in time ? LOL!

Studying tmr or Friday !! JYJY!
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Today was quite tiring, i don't know why. Maybe cause of R.A tutorial. Zzzz. This subject I'm having less and less confidence.
Today got microecons in the morning, a little late, but at least i did the tutorial. (: Then i did some of R.A questions also. Next time R.A I'm gonna try harder to understand everything.
Ended at 4.30pm today ! Zzzz.

If I'm not wrong, we're buying hamster soon right ? :D I hope we can have enough money.
But i wonder how we gonna spend our 2 years anniversary.

Exams are coming ! Maybe will stop blogging for some time.
Today u made me cry..
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Time for pictures ! :D

This is my cousin ! So cute right ! She know I'm taking a picture of her, so when i said "Smile !" She smiled all the way like this. LOL!
My cute dog. (:

1year11mths anniversary.
I dnknw what's this but obviously it's a random one. LOL.
In the polyclinic i guess ? Like what the doctors said, i go there every 4 days. LOL!
At my cousin's block.
I told her i wanna take picture of her, so she asked me to take picture of her sitting down tgt with the teddy. Then i ask her use her hands and twist

Took today.
Pizzahut, Look like a heartshape ? LOL.
This is what we ordered. Very very full.
Mushroom soup, i prefer chicken. LOL
Random picture, i asked him to pose that way. LOL! Thought of posting pictures cause very long don't have pictures appearing in my blog already. LOL! Today went to school early in the morning to submit the CSA proj, Phew~ Finally got rid of 1 proj, chiong yesterday night with Sab and today morning we print, buy the stuffs. Went to eat at design school and then we did the ppt slides tgt with bird.

Presented during lab lesson, oh man it sucks. I guess we have to brush up our presenting skills already, and I'm starting to hate last minute work for projects ONLY. LOL.

After that actually don't wanna go for Micro lecture, but i forgot to pass Eewen her book, so no choice i have to walk back to school and since I'm at there, i might as well go for the lecture. & I'M SERIOUS GLAD AND HAPPY THAT I WENT FOR THE LECTURE ! Thanks bird !! :D:D:D

Went home after that, and while walking past pet safari, i noticed many other animals other than dogs. LOL Finally. I saw terrapins, and i saw VERY SMALL ONES ! So cute ! Their shells are very very bright green and then they are so small in size ! Frickin' cute. LOL. I hate hermit crabs, they look super disgusting to me. Then i saw fish, i didn't wanna buy fish that much cause i can't take them out from the water and touch them. LOL.

& I wanna buy hamster ! Those super young and small size, and brown&white in colour ! People if you know where to buy cheap hamsters, their foods and other stuff please let me know the location and the price ! :D I'll be super grateful and thankful to you. (:

I think i shld get back to micro tutorial soon. (:

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Fated

Friday
Unhappiness on that day, but was solved around the late afternoon.
Went home after a walk at BORING TM.
At night, something damn coincidence happened. Found that my cousin actually knew Shawn's cousin. She even came to my house before. LOL. It was damn damn qiao.
Shawn is a friend whom i accidentally added his email mistaking for my another primary school friend. Slowly as time passes, found out that his cousin is actually one of my primary school friend. We have been great friends these 6 years. Then slowly again, found out that his grandmother's house is at the 11th floor while mine is at the 3rd floor. LOL. Friday night, we found out that his cousin and my cousin are very good friends. LOL. I have never had a situation that is like this with my other friends. LOL. So he's really a very very special friend. LOL. Maybe my previous life, I was his cousin or somehow related to him. LOL, I'm thinking too much.

Saturday
HAPPY 1 YEAR 11MONTHS.
Next month would be our 2 years. Yeah guess what, that day wasn't that great too me. We were having finance problem. LOL. We wanted to eat Sakae Sushi, but they don't have the student buffet, so we chose Cafe Cartel, THEN! We finally decided on pizzahut. LOL. Was very full after the meal and we went off to walk around in TM or in CS. Went to the arcade again, but this time it seriously spoil my mood. Met one his fcuk friend and he was damn sarcastic and attitude towards me. At that time i don't even know who is that person, after i found out i was frickin' pissed. Like wtf ? I didn't even say a single word or what.
& my useless bf just stand there, kept quiet and laugh a little. Zzzz.
Guess what !? Then we went home very soon after that ! Because my stupid bf have no idea where should we go next. Maannnn, this anniversary suck big time.

Every month, it's like always me who think of places to go to. Sometimes, can you think of places too ? You always go to places like TM and CS. I know I'm lazy but anniversary if we go off early, I'm willing to go to far places, plus it's Saturday !! GRRRRRR.
Nevermind, it's over already anyway.
I just hope next month would be a wonderful one. :D
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Okay?

We're okay now, i don't know whether i made the right decision for this.
Still, i wanna thank GF ! for being there when i needed someone, she even wanted to accompany me come out walk walk (: Thanks girl, that's very very sweet of you.
I wanna also thank Sab for giving some advices and i really think it's very helpful. (:

Tmr is our 1 year 11mths. I really wonder...
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Torn apart.

I feel terrible, horrible and whatever that rhymes with those words.

I felt so so tight in my heart, like I'm tired of a lot of things.

What matters most in a relationship is that both the couple would be happy together, however, it seems that I'm not happy already.

I just felt sick and tired of those words that are coming from his mouth and I'm no longer the way i was anymore. All those lies, all those ridiculous excuses and the way he changed his reply or answers. It sucks.

Sometimes i prayed really hard for him to discipline himself, that lying is a bad thing. But it seems like he always never learn his lesson.



I want to have the courage and i think I'm gonna try now. (:

I'm letting loose and i hope that I'll be happier this way and no need to listen to anymore lies or excuses anymore.





Saw his blog & I'm feeling happier for him, cause it seems that he's feeling better every single day, and i actually smiled when i read it. He's really sweet and nice. I saw what he wrote and i really hope he will be fine after a few more days. I'm touched by his post too. LOL. & if by chance he reads my blog, i hope he will feel touched too. :D



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No motivations

Today i didn't go to school for lecture. Zzzz i always trying to motivate myself but i always can't seem to do it, woke up in the morning yet i sleep back again.
Tmr is M.F lecture, i hope i can wake up to go. I hate M.F lecture cause the notes are ALWAYS so thick ! Irritating, some slides are not necessary anyway waste my printer ink. Now my black ink is already running out. But even if i go for M.F lecture i don't really understand the lecture. LOL.
Tmr bird won't be coming, dnknw Sab coming not. LOL.
Anyway after school, lunch at home and i got an interview at 3pm.

Saturday is our 1 year 11 months anniversary. LOL. one more month and it will be 2 years already. Wondering how Saturday would be like.
Sunday meeting GF & maybe other friends to study at airport. It has been so long since i stepped into the airport. Must study real hard this time.

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Vacination.

Today went to school for M.F tutorial, bird didn't come cause her eyes are in pain. Hope it's okay now. So did questions and then we ended really early. LOL. Bf came to find me, at first i wanna go home for lunch but then coincidentally, my GF asked me wanna eat tgt not ? So i was soooo touched and happy, and i decided to go with her. Hahahaha. Stupid song was over there also, very very irritating. LOL.

Ate the chicken cutlet rice and it's really really nice. :D
Bf came and wanted to eat at biz park however, we decided to go home. Wanted to ask Sabrina come but she was very kanchiong over the proj. LOL. So she go lab herself ): I'm sorry girl. Wanna go for lecture later, however when i called the vet, they told me the appointment is at 4.30pm. Zzzz. So i can't make it for lecture.

Brought my dog to the vet and she was kinda nervous and i don't know ? scared ? LOL. So we let her walked freely and all that. When it's her turn i think she's really scare, strangers mah, so she's shivering. But she didn't screamed or make a single sound when the needle went into her body ! What a good good girl , I'm proud of her. :D So went home and i gave her 3 snacks, normally i give her one only.
Doctor also said she had lost weight, gosh. I'm feeding more starting from today ! Hahaha.

At home right now and bf is sleeping half-naked. Feel like taking picture of him and post it before he wakes up, but i scare he will get angry. xD
Friends + GF, i shall see u on Sunday, right ? Hahaha.
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Moodless

Today was terrible. I was so upset, so worried, but i don't wanna show it out of course. I almost cried in the morning while waiting for Ms wong to come.
The only moment i felt happier was when I was sort of "bullying" bird. LOL! Sorry! xD but i know you are not that petty right ? Yes, good. LOL!

I tried to get back to the stupid R.A. again, and i just hope i can make it ? Who wants to repeat the subject right ? Zzz. LOL But it's really not that easy to me and I'm sure I'm gonna put lots of effort to understand that stupid complicated subject.

After school saw Wenn outside the lib, sat with her and talked. I'm your friend right ? So you can find me sometimes too (: I know it's not easy, but try to cheer up. Be happy always. :D The laughing and crazy wenn. (:

& my special friend, i want you to be happy again too. I know it's not easy, but what i want is for you to be alright. (: I'll be praying for you. Your god, and i know it ends with AMEN. LOL
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i love you my friend

Be by my side, be here with me. You are the one who never fails to put a smile on my face, make me laugh so loud like an idiot in front of the computer.

I'll pray, sincerely, for you. I wanna tell everyone, maybe not everyone, i wanna let God know how much i cherish you. & this would be the first time I've cried for you.

I'm really happy and touched from what you said. I'm not very good at words because my vocabulary is very very limited, my english sucks too. LOL so i don't really know how to help but i know that I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU.

i love you! & i know u love me too although u didn't say it VERY SINCERELY. LOL!

Just want you to be alright, want you to be fine, want you to joke like before, want you to be as happy as you can be. :D I'm really glad that you're my friend, you were always there for me when I'm feeling upset, even how mad or how sad i am, i told you I'm not in the mood to joke, you still joked ! LOL. But i laughed. :D

Like what you've said, "thanks for being my friend". You are such a great friend to me, i would never ever wanna lose you my friend. You are a very special one to me too. (:

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No school (:

Didn't go to school today, was lazy. LOL. See ! My laziness is killing me and it's very very harmful. LOL.
& the doctor i met today has a problem, maybe cause I've been going to the clinic too often so he SORT OF reprimanded me. LOL Who cares, i just don't take MC so often can already. & i really have to start studying soon !!
GF ! Let's go out already ! LOL. I wanna go airport to study again. I miss those memories and the place. Hahaha.

1 hour later, I'll be working at eastpoint. & I'll be missing my darling like mad while I'm working, i hope he will miss me too. ):
Quarrels are starting, once again. Yesterday and maybe today too ? Why? Zzzz. So sickening.

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Better (:

These few days were GREAT to me ! (: Maybe cause I'm spending quality time with you.
Anyway nothing big really happened, just spent weekend at home. Bf stayed over and today's the day to let him go, as usual. LOL.
We had been playing high street 5 these few days. Okay, the game attracts me. LOL! Maybe cause i prefer these kinda games than maple or other games that are like maple. LOL.

I can also see that bf is changing for me too. (: Yes, and boy, you are doing a great job at it. Because of me you stopped playing games that i hate and you seldom get addicted to games (except for the car racing in your psp). But that's alright, because you are not so addicted to it and you always play when I'm doing something else. :D Thanks boy, i can see your changes very clearly. & i hope you can see mine as well.
Tmr is the start of school again. I'm not very happy about it cause it's all the way till 6pm ! I always hated when school ends late. LOL.

I wonder how to make an appointment for my dog tmr and how i shld go to work tmr without my precious one. ):
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New blogskin. (:

This is my new blogskin and i simple LOVE it ! Hahaha. Cause right the words are lyrics from the Jonas Brothers ! They rock ! HAHAHA. I'm crazy over them :D:D

Peeps from my group proj, i don't think i can make it by 11am, cause i have to eat my lunch at home so maybe I'll reach in the afternoon by the time, but if i can I'll try to go. (:

Actually i hate working, not only that, i hate working at a far place ! Zzzz. Mediacorp is frickin' far okay. It's at the Thomson Road, walao. 10bucks in my ez link card, came home with like 3 bucks left. My mum ask me to think whether is it worth it cause the trip already cost so much. So I'm thinking of finding a new job. ): Sorry Vanessa but it's really damn far from where I'm residing at.

Have one job on Monday only. If only it's many days i would love the job cause it's at Eastpoint. (: Nevermind, I'm determined to find a better job !

Thanks darling for everything alright ? Helping me do things, coming to school to find me, accompany me here and there. I know it's tough on you because i still don't trust you, but i really can't help it. I don't have as much confidence as you. ):

GF ! Where are you too !? I'm missing you so much already !! (:
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Slacking. A bad thing.

I'm slacking already. Oh my gawd. Someone stop me, i don't know what to do or control myself.
I've skipped school quite a number of times especially when the school starts early. I said i wanna study, but i didn't do so. Dieeee how am i gonna pass during my exams !?
I don't do POM homeworks, and i don't go for the lectures. Zzzz. How did i managed to pass my POM ??!

Nevermind, tmr after school I'm going to work and after i work, if I'm tired, i will rest. Then I'll start revising and everything on Saturday and Sunday. (: Yep, and i hope i will succeed. Although i know that i have to go to work one of these days. Suck, but what to do. My mum forced me to do so. She thinks that her generation is the same as ours, when in the past she can study and work, why can't i.
& when i envy other people's parents, their children are treating them for granted just because the parents are too good to them. Sigh, what has the world became to ?

Finance. It's always about that in my family. Housechores, it's always about ME & MY MUM in my family. What century are we in now mum ? Guys can help out too, doesn't mean my brother's in NS means he don't need to help out. What you have shown me is that, because my brother have money every month that's why you don't ask him to help out at home. & because I'm not earning anything right now, you want me to help out everything at home. What is this ? Are you really that money faced ? What are you teaching or showing your daughter right now. Sometimes i feel like shouting at you, feel like telling you everything but i can't. Because you are not the kind of mother that I've always dreamt of.
I'm disappointed sometimes, the way you insult me. I didn't talked back because i respect you, but i know sometimes i did argue back but that's because you are too much already.

Yeah, life can suck at times. I just me and my bf earn enough money so we won't be as poor as right now. A stable & easy job. I wanna quit my laziness. I know it's gonna be really tough, but I'm still gonna try somehow.
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Tired.

Didn't post these few days cause i was really tired. Let's start from yesterday.
I went to school, then i reached home about 1pm. Ate maggi at home, watched TV and waited for bf to come back. He went home to take his IC then we left house at 5.10 to go for so called job "interview" at Mediacorp reception. OMG la, it's frickin' far from my house. We took like 1 hour and 20 to 30mins to reach. I can actually rot in the train or in the bus. The job is easy for me but the travelling already cost me a bomb cause my card is adult fare. So i took bus home all the way, reached home at around 12am i guess ? Really late already. On the bus, darling urgently needs the toilet so we stopped somewhere and went for the toilet.
Then we cab home. (: Nice cab actually. Hahahaha.
Went home and while darling's bathing, i fell asleep already. >.< Sorry ! Woke up around 6plus am today and put alarm to wake up later for school.
So i woke up and was DAMN tired, still i manage to bath and prepare a little. Suddenly i felt damn hungry and tired. Wanted to eat maggi but no time for it. So decided not to go to school and then stay at home to rest and eat. & I'm not going to work today since me and bf are feeling so weak. Actually the job is not tiring at all. It's the bus trip that makes us so tired.
LOL.

That will be all for now. Later going to polyclinic to see doctor and maybe going my cousin house to have some homecooked food since I've always eat outside food.
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Quiz. Zzzz.

Qns; The person who tagged you is?
IDIOT RACHAEL TEO. LOL
Qns; What is your relationship with him/her/them?
Classmates since secondary 1 till sec3. (:
Qns; Your 5 impressions of him/her/them?
SUPER LAME, IDIOT, CRAZY, MUSIC FREAK AND MATHS PRO. LOL!
Qns; The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
My birthday present, she paste pictures representing me and our friends together (:
Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, you will ... ?
Kill myself. HAHAHA. I'm attached to my one and only beloved GF :D
Qns; If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improves on?
HER SIZE ! god, she's so skinny. LOL
Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ...?
Settle the misunderstanding. (:
Qns; If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
I don't know leh. LOL
Qns; The most desire thing you want to do for him/her/them now is?
Tell her "YOUR ARE REALLY SO LAME !!" LOL
Qns; Your overall impression on him/her?
SUPER LAME. LOL
Qns; How do you think people around you will feel about you?
I don't know about now, but if it's in the past, it would be fierce, short tempered, impatient and crazy. LOL
Qns; The character you love of yourself is...?
Laughing crazily like nobody's business.
Qns; On the contrary, the character you hate dislike yourself are ...?
Impatient and bad tempered.
Qns; The most ideal person you want to be is?
I don't know? Joe's type of GF ! HAHAHA :D:D (Dar, don't be jealous. >.<) xD
Qns; For people who care & like you, say something about them.
I LOVE YOU GUYS !! Hahahaha! & don't ever stop alright. xD!
Qns; Name 10 people.
1. Boyfriend
2. Girlfriend
3. Sabrina
4. Elizabeth
5. JinMay
6. Song
7. Alex
8. Shawn Tan
9. Lihui
10. YQ
Qns; Who is number six having relationship with ?
Ohhhh It's a secret. Hahahah.
Qns; Is 9 a male or female?
Female
Qns; If 7&10 are together, will it be a good thing?
HAHAHAHA! It will be NICE. xD!
Qns; How about 5&8 ?
LOL! 5 is not 8's type i think. LOL! But i think it would be damn funny. LOL!
Qns; What's number 2 studying about?
BSG
Qns; When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
I forgot, Friday is it ?
Qns; Is number 4 single?
Nope. (:
Qns; Talk something casually about number 1.
He's retarded & he can make me happy from the bottom of my heart.

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I WANNA FIND A JOB !!!!!! Anyone who have a part time job to intro, find me !!! Thanks !!!! :D
Today didn't go school cause i slept damn late ytd night. I was doing POM, so idiot ! I didn't go school so i don't know ytd night i do for what. Omg. Zzzz.

Ate lunch at home then went to meet Rac they all at her house there. Settle that stupid yet childish matter. Kept calling them but they didn't pick up their phones so we were like very fed up. Then sms-ed them they didn't reply. So we decided to head back to the school. Then realize the teachers and the DM knew about it alrdy. So invited us into the school.
Sigh.. Losers. Humji yet still call us the mouse. LOL.
The girl told us that she didn't knew that we wanna meet them. LOL!! What a joke, when you don't know who are the people that you are challenging or even talking to, please be careful & i hope this incident had taught you girls a valuable lesson.
You are actually disgracing your school's reputations and how your parents discipline you.

You girls are still so young, yet you are doing all these, and speaking all kinds of vulgarities. Tsk.

After that i went for a haircut, cost me $16 ! Dar cut with me too and after that we went home to check the timing for the movie. Realized that there's only one timing, so we decided to watch tomorrow. I hope we both are able to wake up in the morning. LOL
So we spent the day downloading psp games, watch TV and play psp games.

GUITAR HERO !!! Woooo. (: If only there are songs that i love, it would be even better. HAHA.

Darling, i love you ! But today your actions are not right, i think you know too right ?
Thanks joan ! (:
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101th

Bored bored bored ! Later gotta do the POM homework. Zzzz. LOL.
Tmr is the last day of the week and i hope can hurry up settle that damn problem. LOL.
Tmr hope will end school earlier cause I'm going for a haircut. & i think Saturday or Sunday I'll be out ? Guess I'll be quite lazy. Hahaha. Hope we can watch the movie soon and go for suntanning.

Our 2 years is next month already. Hope i can find a job soon so that we got enough money on that day and i wanna put on braces ! If my mum ever allow it right, i would be happy like mad ! But that will only happen when i have to pay for the things. LOL.

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100th post.

STUPID PJ ! My 100th post is actually this 100 question quiz. ARGH. You will wait, till i get one VERY long one for you. (:
01. What's more important? Money Or Love?
Love duhh. LOL. I'm not THAT money-faced. xD
02. Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
No.
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
Using laptop. Hahaha.
04. When did you last cry?
Today. Cause my stupid brother used vulgarity on me. Argh i hate it.
05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread / waffle.
6. What do you want in your life right now?
Have more time, more money and able to get good grades. (:
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
I would prefer putting up my hood, but i don't have one. So yeah, umbrella. LOL.
08. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?
My soft toys of course, but my bed is too small for them. ):
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts.
10.What is the nicest text in your inbox say?
Dar dun think too much le ok? I will always be here with you. So dun worry ok? I will be there when you need me. Cos you are my one and only baby. :) i love you.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Yeah. HAHA.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No, I'm wearing something my maid bought for me. :D:D
13. What was the last movie you caught?
Kungfu Panda. & don't mess with the zohan is coming !! :D
14. What are you proud of?
I don't know ? Go into TP? or came into this world ? LOL.
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Okay. Cya.
16. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?
Korea/Japan/USA.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
Yeah. Bev. Bearbear. Xiiaozhu. Zhuzhu. Belly. Beaver. LOL.
18. What does your last received text message say?
Dar where are you ?
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
12plus going 1am.
20. Are you currently happy?
Yessss. Very. Hahahaha. :D
21. Who gives you best advice?
No one i think ? LOl.
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Nopeee.
23. Who did you talk to on phone last night?
Darling.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes. part time jobs !!!
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Bf. He did a lot of retarded moves at the fitness corner downstairs my house. LOL.
26. Do you wear toe socks?
No, but i would love to. LOL.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Song.
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yes.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
When they like to act like a different person in front of others.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Yeaahhh. (:(:
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
What's that ? LOl.
32. What is the colour of your room?
White.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
No i won't. I can buy a lamborghini with that much money !! :D
34. Do You Belived in the saying " talk is cheap?
Yesss duh. It is really cheap. LOL. It's actually FOC. LOL.
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Bf
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Bf bf.
38. Do you have a life?
Yeahhh.
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt?
Not really ?
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
...
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Me, my mum and bf ?LOL.
42. Last time you smiled?
Today ! Just now. Hahaha.
43. Have you changed this year?
Yes !
44. What are you listening right now?
Nothing.
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Yeah. Alex & bf.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open.
47. Is there a quote you live by?
yes.
48. Do you want someone you cant have?
Yes.
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Some sort ? LOL.
50. What was the worst idea you have had in this week?
punching some stupid idiot faces ? LOl.
51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
laptop.
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
yes? LOL.
53. What song best describe your love life?
fall for you. (:
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
duh.
55. Who always make you laugh?
A lot of people. Bf never fails to make me laugh.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese.
57. Favourite website?
youtube.com i guess. LOL.
58. What your middle name?
what is middle ? LOl.
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
School & project & maybe movie ?
60. What do you think you are like?
pig ? LOl.
61. Who will you choose to die with?
Loved ones.
62. Where have you been today?
School, TM and home.
63. What game do you play often?
Audition. But seldom alrdy.
64. Who are you missing right now?
Hahahaha.aaaaa
65. If you have to choose between friends n love, who will you choose?
Tough one. Friends ? LOl.
66. What are you doing right now?
doing this stupid thing that PJ sabo-ed me.
67. Which primary school are you from?
CKP ! ROCKS !
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black, blue, white.
69. What emotion you like to show?
A laughing emotion.
70. What is your life to you?
Precious and fragile.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
pour it out
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
bf
73. Who you admire most?
strong girls. as in mentally strong.
74. Which month are you born in?
nov.
75. How are you feeling right now?
TIRED
76. What is the time now?
11.43pm
77. Where are you now?
my room
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
gold, brown.
79. What is the highest alcoholic percentage you have had consume?
i dnknw ? LOL. 5% or 15%? LOL. or 30% or 40% ? I don't know. LOL!
80. What do you do when you are moody?
vent anger ! shout in my pillow !! LOL. & start telling april & bf about it. LOL.
81. At which age you wish to get marry?
21-25?
82. Who is more important to you?
My family.
83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nope. LOL.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Family i guess.
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yes
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
University.
87. What is your goal for this year?
To get good grades.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Maybe?
89. What feeling do you love most?
happy feeling.
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
YESSSSSS
91. What feeling you hate the most?
when i got betrayed.
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yesss
93. Describe schooling in 1 word.
ROCKS ! :D
94. Who cares for you most?
bf & friends.
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My family's health.
96. What will you bring when you fight?
punching glove ? LOL. or spike shoes also can. xD
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Dumping guys that are actually rare to find.
98. What would you feel that everyone no longer cares for you?
Lonely.
99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Cry, angry, whack him like mad and then have my revenge. LOL!
100.Who's the last person to make you sad?
My brother ! stupid idiot skinny ugly brother !! LOL!

Instructions : Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it .

How will the future be like ??

Haha This is the supper jinmay drew for me that night. (:(: Thanks ah may !! :D Wooo. It's yummy. HAHA.
Time don't wait for you. It will just keep ticking away. I don't know man, but when things get better, i get scare.
We did talked about the future these few days.
You told me that i will stil be with you in the future, but can u guarantee ? No you can't. Each day, I'm preparing already.
I got myself mentally prepared that one day you might leave me. Because i don't believe in forever when there's no trust. I dare to admit and it's the fact that i do not have much trust in you. That's why i know in the future we surely will have many many more problems on trust.
Like during our working days, you have your own job and I'll have mine. There are surely many many more obstacles we have to face.
But without trust, everything or every problem's difficulty has times 2. & it's twice harder to solve or overcome the problems.

I seriously don't know how to survive. I'm serious with you and you are the one i wanna settle down with, it might be possible and it might not be possible.

I always tell myself whats mine will be mine, not mine it will never be mine. I wanna try to believe in this phrase, but somewhere in my heart tells me that still, i need to work hard for happiness so that it would be mine. My friends always tell me to try let go of you, and if in the end you still ended with me then you're fated to be with me. But I'm always afraid. I'm afraid that once i let go of you, I'm letting go of my own happiness forever.

I really don't know what and which to believe. I wish god or whoever can guide me through.
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Tuesday.

Today whole day was tutorial. So i can't be lazy. Was really tired in the morning cause the weather is sooo cooling ! Hahaha. Went to school, helped sab buy her milo then i went upstairs. Had microecons tutorial and was okay cause at least i understand. LOL.
Then had lunch at kfc with TRIO ! :D:D It was nice when it's just the 3 of us. (:
Then we had R.A tutorial. Oh yeah i failed my R.A test. LOL. Very badly. But i score well for microecons, at least to me i think i score well ? LOL. For my standard of brain i think it's good alrdy. HAHAHA.

Ended school like 2.45pm, at biz entrance i saw GF ! Stupid Song. LOL. Anyway she's so pretty ! & i miss her loads man. xD Poor thing she have lessons all the way to 5pm. Take care girl ! Went home after that and waited for dar at Safra bus stop. Saw alex too, the nice GL. Hees.

What's wrong with bf ? Very suspicious. He suddenly sms-ed me something very very sweet, but i really feel that he did something guilty that's why. But who knows. LOL. But I'm still a little happy from that message.

Oh Jolene MEIMEI. Don't try to play games with us okay ? You play games and you will see. This matter will not only become big but it will go to your principal, and also your parents. I'm not threatening because me and my friends DARE to do it. At least we are not in wrong in the first place. So stop hiding/running away from us you this humji little girl. You can't run forever.

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Monday !

Have school today, went for lecture and sab didn't go for the lecture ! LOL. Gf also didn't come to school. Haiyoo. Ended lecture and then we went to have lunch at biz park.
Went to slack near the lab then we went for CSA alrdy. So boring, 3 hours. Did the dreamweaver again then chatted with GF online. Gf, just hope you will be more careful in the future okay ? (: Take good care of yourself and don't get sick so easily, altho I'm another one too. LOL.

Throat had been getting worse each day and it's really painful to talk, but what to do ? I love talking ! HAHA. Went to microecons lecture after that then rac & bf came to find me to settle that stupid problem.
LOL. Yeah we met with quite a number of obstacles but still manage to handle it. After school went to walk around opp school, wanted to eat but the chicken rice stall was closed. So we went to Rac's house to talk about it. Renny is cute la ! I don't understand why Rac must treat her sister like that. LOL. Then we talked at her house, chatted. Then bf sent me home. Cab back home cause i was thirsty & don't wish to waste any money.
So went home watch tv and rested.
Bf went home around 8plus going 9. Yeah and now I'm using the comp, just finished watching fated to love you. :D nice nice show.

Tmr is another long dayyy ~
These few days had quite a nice chat with Alex. Nice GL! (:(: & I'm the nice freshie! Hahaha.

Thanks bf for today !! :D:D
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