Another week of torture

Hais I'm here to anyhow blog. Zzz. I really hope I'm able to see him tomorrow. Okay maybe no need to see but at least hear from him often. SMS each other as usual, call for 5 mins or so. Sigh it's tough being an army boy's girlfriend. I can't really get to sleep even though I'm super tired right now.

I miss him like hell seriously. Just the thought of missing him can almost bring tears to my eyes. I'm so tired these few days. I need to study hard for my mid sem cause I gave babe my words for it. And also I have to work at the same time. Good thing is i'm working t1 on weds and Saturday so I don't have to travel real far. hehe.

Staying over each other's house like quite nice. Kinda addicted to the feeling cause both can go out and go back to the same place later. see each other for like 24 hrs. hahah best is I saw him for 96hrs I guess. V shiok sial. Hahah. Then can go out till super late also nevermind. Hahah when he comes back, we'll go mind's cafe or whatever things he wanna do. :)

Babe I miss you and I love you. Please be back soon alright? Take care of yourself over there. (L)

Brunei

I so many days didn't blog alrdy !! Hahah.
Anyw, main thing is babe just went off to Brunei. Dammit, I'm starting to miss him alrdy fuck.
I just hope this one week would pass faster than usual, then Mid- sem faster over so we can hurry go out and celebrate and then have fun.
Japan trip was bloody hell postponed and my mum asked me to get back the $300 deposit. Hahah. & so my holidays will be working working and working. Hahah.

Stayed over @ babe's house from Thurs to Sunday. Will update when I'm really free. Tonight got work and i forgot to bring my newly bought sandals back home ! So i still have to wear shoes. Fuck school srsly, I'm so lazy i don't even feel like going to school. =/
But cannot, i told babe I'll go and i won't want him to worry about my studies.
FUCKKKKKK

Why my itouch sync so slow?!?!?! Nb cb.

Photos

Love my babe (:

Look at the crowd who came for my birthday! Thanks people! :D

Girls (:

It was so awesome. I was really surprised. I'm so touched really. Thanks friends. Special thanks to Sabrina & Babe for the effort put in. (:

Awesome 18th birthday

I'm feel so lazy, don't feel like working but have no choice.
Heh. Friday was my birthday and srsly, i think it will be the best birthday of my life. :D
I got a surprise @ fish & co. and have to do some stupid actions. Hahah. But it was awesome, really. (:
I really wanna thank those people who came just to celebrate my birthday w me and especially those people who came out with such an idea. Really appreciated and i got so touched that i cried.
Thanks babe, really a lot. (L)
I wanna thank everyone who wished me happy birthday too. (:
Will upload the photos another day.

Saturday went out w babe to town bcus he have some event held @ town. Went to suntec to have dinner @ kushin.bo. (Y) fucking awesome dinner, it's so nice! the food, the seafood. Yummmmm. Played arcade and watched 2012. So-so.
Sunday woke up to go back suntec & get my phone back, ate mac breakfast and then went home watched saw 2. (Y)(Y)(Y) went to work after that. Shag ballz.

Today going work @ 3pm also somemore @ fareast. I feel so tired. & i miss you babe.
Gotta bath ! Bye !

Turn back the clock

Been thinking.
I bet majority of the human species in this world would wanna turn back time. Because there are things that they really regretted and they will wanna make changes to it.

But what's the first thing you wanna change when you turn back time?
Studies. Love. Friends. Family. Which comes first?

However, there are cases whereby, even if time was being turned back, they will still make the exactly same decisions. Why? It is because of those decisions, that led them to what they currently have right now. & they're contented with that or rather, grateful.

I would definitely wanna turn back time, and the things I'm gonna do is stop hurting those innocent and nice guys. But everything's too late, I've already come this far, what i can only do is just apologise to them and everyone gotta move on. Idk what has happened to their lives, what I'm worried is that because of the hurt I've caused them, they wouldn't dare to love 100% again. =/
Because I've seen many guys who got hurt by girls and they became very different after that. So i wonder, if those guys that i hurt have became different.

Some things are REALLY fated. You are fated to meet many guys before you met this right one. When will i meet my right one? Or maybe cause I'm still young, having some immature thinkings?
When am i able to put in 100%?
Or rather, who will be the next one that I'm able to put in 100%?
Who will be the one that i will fall deeply until i will be blinded once again by love.
I wonder.......
Sometimes, really wanna look into the future and see who will i end up with. Who's the one and only one for me. There's too many doubts in life.

You're suppose to cherish&treasure things you have, but unknowingly, you took it for granted.
Theories are easy to read and understand
But practical are difficult and complicated to apply.
(:

End of thoughts. I'M IN NEED OF BLOOD TYPE O!

One less lonely girl

Bored bored bored. It's the time of the month again. Damn sian somemore tomorrow's my birthday. =/
Later public speaking's test ! Impromptu, so useless srsly. CDS is a waste of time, mf.
Feel like cabbing to sch but shall not waste money. Zzzz.

Boring boring boring, life is so boring. I wanna go rock concert. I think rock is fucking cool now. I think black is even cooler. (Y) Hahah.
I'm dying to club but......... =/ don't even feel like mentioning.

CRAMP! Bloated, no appetite. Fuck.
I wanna partyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so jealous.
Cousin is like 14 currently, and she get to party like million times. No need to mention the cousin which is the same age as me. Zzzzz nb cb.

I need a group of party friends.

BLACK ROCKS.

School is boring!

Sup!
Work has been not bad for me. Love making new friends, although most of them are girls. =/
Would definitely prefer more guys! Hahaha. Shanice is damn funny. Hahah. I think people over there are all this funny huh.
Today will be working w someone new again. (Y)
Kinda lazy to work nowadays cause it's always somewhere far and i have to stand the whole day. ):
I wish my boyfriend is around. >.<>
My dad was impressed by me when i said i wanna prove to my mum i can work for months. I HOPE I CAN ALSO. LOL!
Normally awhile only i will sian. Maximum i only worked for 3months i think. HAHAHA.

Damn i miss my boyfriend.
My l.o.v.e, oh my l.o.v.e
I'm so into you, don't know what i'd do, your love is so true.

I suddenly got a few movies i wanna watch. Hahah. Paranormal activity is I BUAY SONG bcus someone get to watch w my boyfriend so i JUST WATCH W HIM so others(& this only include THE ONE I DON'T LIKE) won't get the chance to watch w him. Shit. LOL.
& when i get jealous, my friends just laugh. _l_
My gf is an agent! (:
2012 is heard A LOT of pple say nice, den just follow. HAHAHA.

Idk why uh, is it i really that funny?
I angry, friends laugh cause the way i angry v funny.
I jealous they also laugh cause also funny.
I pekcek also laugh. My every reaction just laugh la.
& majority the person who laugh is TAVIS CHOW HONG WEI LA. Nb cb.
One day u will get it from me la. I'm gonna kaopeh you until u buay lun.

Siannnn, i don't like birthdays when school is still going on. ):
Last time sec sch, my birthday is always during holidays. Now poly, my birthday is always when school just re-open not long ago. Nb.

BABE.I.LOVE.YOU.

Great change

During RVM, boringboringboring~

@ IKEA

Hi people, very long never update. Friday school ended early @ 12pm cause of boring crowded noisy CCN day and we went to ikea to have our lunch. Wooo! shiokkkkkkkk. :D

Walked around a little here and there then went to TM to catch poker king! Thot it was nice but almost fell asleep in the cinema but one thing good is that i learnt how to play poker, at least the basic i guess. Hahah.

After movie, met the rest @ MRT train-ed to Aljunied then went to Geylang to eat Dim Sum.

Wow, it's like.... SHIOK for the 2nd time of the day! Wow x3. HAHA.

Was rushing for the toilet cause my pee coming out anytime so i walked like super fast w babe back to MRT. Hahah.

Train-ed back home, ker & brian came over to visit April and too bad she have alrdy forgotten Ker and she prefer Brian. HAHA. Too bad, ker never visit her often. Hahah. Watch the xiaozhu show and then they went off. I forgot what we did @ night but i think is doing itouch applications all that. Hahah.

Saturday

Woke up late then prepare and we went downstairs to have chicken rice plus wanton mee. I ate 1 chicken rice and 1 wanton mee, yah starving uh bo bian. Then suddenly Babe wanna go Ubin so asked me to go back get changed then when i reached home i suddenly don't feel good. Rest.

Sorry about it.

Anyw then he finally did finish my itouch application.

Great thanks and great appreciation for the effort. Cause he was like busy for almost 2 days neglecting me just concentrating doing that thingy. LOL.

Then went to EP for dinner, we ate coffeeshop food, i wanted roti prata and he like did evrythg la, order food order drinks, bring me the food the utensils wa evrythg den he look damn busy la . -.- I feel so... spoilt. Zzz. Then he ordered extra hotdog for me ! Wa at that moment i felt touched. HAHAHA.

Like hotdog only right? BUT STILL SWEET RIGHT! okay. -.- LOL.

Then slept early after wo cai cause the next day got work. Wasn't a really good day but got to know a new friend call Yuanling. Nice girl nice girl. (: At least better than someone. Was on the train, phone low batt so listening to the music on my itouch. & i cried. Sighs. It's been ages since I'll cry alone on public transport. Needed a hug so badly @ that time.

Reached Simei, saw justin! Wooo funny guy, i like him. LOL. Must meet up soon man! Wheeexzcxz! Hahah. Then saw Keyzin also. (Y) i kinda love simei, all my friends all around here. HAHA.

Tomorrow having test! Goodluck!

#1. Thanks for bringing me out during the weekends

#2. Thanks for making me enjoy the time

#3. Thanks for the delicious food

#4. Thanks for the effort and staying over @ my place for 2 days.

#5. Thanks for sending me to Cityhall.

#6. Sorry for not being straightforward enough

#7. Sorry for not being able to watch Saw2 w you

#8. Thanks for the GREAT effort making my itouch applications

#9. Updating the software & sync-ing evrything for me

I think that's about it. (:

Overall. Thank you.

Betrayal

Girls really are dangerous creatures. I have a v weak point, which is i trust new people very easily. They are able to gain my trust very easily. But once they broke this trust by betraying me, then this trust will forever be gone.
That's why i always prefer guy friends than girl friends. Because guys they gossip, but the next day they will forget about it, and they only gossip among their close friends. They don't go around spreading. This is something I've always believed in.
Hate people who backstab. They say very nicely "trust me, i won't tell anyone." & yes i just naively believe them and i just say evrything out. At the end of the day, u realize that they just say that in order to get more juicy news from you. =/ Humans are selfish by nature. Hell yeah.

I know i did wrongly by not telling the truth, so i don't really blame them for telling the truth but i don't understand up till now why they have to add things that are not true. If you dislike me, come right up to me and say it to me. Don't in front of me act very nice "we should meet up often! When you free again blahblahblah" but behind you are doing these kinda things that make me dislike you. I once thought you are a nice girl, but i no longer think that way.
I will never forgive. NEVER.
When i don't like someone, I WILL SHOW IT OUT.
And if you really wanna say out the things that you promised someone that you will not say out, at least go find out the EXACT truth before you spill out. Because some things that you say, might not even be the truth, worse off, you're just adding fuel to the fire.
If you say u never dislike me, den whatever yeah. I'm stupid, I'm stupid not to believe what my friends say. I shouldn't have trusted you. Wrong move and that's it.

Hypocrites are everywhere srsly.
Bo bian only can blame myself for being stupid. But good thing, I'm a person who learns from my mistake and believe me, i will never make the same mistake again. (:
These people, please fuck off. Don't ever appear in my sight and best still, fuck off from my life, don't even get a single involved.

& idk why i always kena this kinda of things.
I be nice, you got problems you come find me, as a friend i will be there for you. Seeing so sad all that, i help you, cheer you up. You call me out, i come out all those shit i do. But when you happy all that, you fuck care me. Why are pple treating me like some kind of rubbish bin when they throw their unhappiness to me and then forget me when they are happy? This is not the first time alrdy. I always give it all for my friends, but what i get return? This is a bad habit which I'm unable to quit. Zzzz.

Going for PS later ! Hope I'm still able to catch up.
Oh & about what i've posted. Please don't ask who I'm talking about. I think it's SUPER obvious who I'm referring to. I think ALL my friends or those who know me well should know who are those are behaving like that. (:
Bottomline, I SERIOUSLY LOVE MY FRIENDS ! :D

Godlike

Don't you feel hungry looking @ all these food? I wan my pomsticks! I wan my chocolates, jelly beans. Etc,etc.... ):

That's me Sab and Azie. Srsly, the height. I look so much taller than Azie sial. But Sab look so much taller than me. T.T

Just a random shot but sab say v nice. Hahah.
That's all! Will be waiting for my Mcdelivery to arrive within 30mins. Wheeezcxzcxz.

I feel like drinking the soup of chicken&soup of mushroom from pizzahut, i feel like eating black pepper crab, chilli crab, i feel like eating steamboat, bbq chicken, cook hotdogs and evrythg. I feel like eating Satay, chicken wings, like real oily sweet chicken wings. I feel like eating Mee soto, Mee siam, Mee Goreng.

Feel like eating cup noodles. Chicken rice downstairs my house with egg plus muchiie muchiie black sauce. Feel like eating Bee Hoon, like real nice Bee Hoon hot hot one. Waaaaaaa...

Food is really heaven. + sleep = godlike.

Uncomfortable

This sucks.
Yesterday first day of work and i got all the shit problems. Zzz. Came back home, feet hurting nevermind. Suddenly feel very cold, very weak and headache. Lie on the bed, took my temperature and it was 37.5. I scare alrdy so faster drink water and sleep. Morning wake up i feel a little better but still i have phobia of going to the toilet.

Not going to work today. ): I can see my money literally flying away. So going to see doctor later. Sighs. I don't feel good at all. Yesterday night i was in so much pain and i need my babe so much. >.<

I scare i can even forget my own birthday, cause i don't even feel the excitement. & as the date keeps coming nearer, i can't remember when my birthday what date. -.- Wtf right i know. But because nothing can amaze me now. Unless my parents buy me a car on my birthday although i don't have a license i think i will forever rmb my birthday what date. LOL. 20 november. I'll try to remember -.-. I really scare on that day i will forget it myself. Hahah.
Birthdays are so boring right?
Sighs.
My birthday always v boring one. Capital not enough, friends not enough, fun not enough, crazy not enough, evrythg is not enough. Wanna held party house also not big, don't have a lot of friends don't have a lot of money also. Aiya FML. Buy 1 breezer nua @ home also shiok. =/

I wanna go clubbing, but somehow this idea is boring me out. :/ i think something is wrong w me. I always get interested in somethg then after a period of time, i will find it boring. I look @ my parents, i don't see them having such genes in their character. So what's wrong w me?! I change things v v easily and quickly. Quite a bad habit. But... bo bian. T.T

Go prepare and off to the doctor! bye!

updates

I'm here to blog! (:
Past weekend was horrible. Sorry friends for making you guys so worked up and worried for me. Real touched, especially Sabrina. Don't blame yourself because I'm really so happy you actually stood up for me. Yeah i was suffering miserably.
But now i hope this nightmare will not repeat. =/

Saturday went over babe's house, rest for a while till my eyes feel better. Then prepared to go out. Met Daniel & went to lucky plaza for some errands that he needed to do. Bus-ed to Bugis and met Sab @ the stall, ate dinner and went to watch This is it. Please people, don't waste money on such meaningless, boring, stupid, waste of money show. Really. I was so happy when Sab say she wanna go toilet, i immediately rush out w her. Is like, i yawn dnknw how many hundred times inside and i almost fell asleep. Keep changing scenes, dance moves keep repeating, songs are awful, lyrics keep repeating, ugly and sickass singer. Idk why people throw their money for such movies. I feel sorry for them.

Oh & Babe owes me a dare. (:
Went to buy my icecream! walk around then went home. Nothing much. Sunday cab over to babe's house, slack, nua, watch show. Went home. Goodnight.

Monday skipped school. Cause dog shit the whole living room, and it's laosai finish cleaning i alrdy late. -.- They came over my house. slack watch tv eat dinner tgt.
Tuesday, went to school. Lecture, blackedout. (Y)
Then went off to work @suntec, stand until legs wanna vomit blood out. ):
When I'm working, i miss babe. >.<
Thanks Sab for the concern, and Jessie. (:

Tomorrow's CMSK2 cancelled, so work @3pm! ):

Sorry, Sorry

Will update tomorrow! (: Byeezcxzcxz! or rather, another day when I'm free cause i gotta work tomorrow! Goodnight! :D

I feel like blogging.
But idk what to type. Haha.
Sorry people.

Please take away my voice.
Please take away my hearing.
(:

Stressless

April so cute right! (:

You definitely need a haircut!

I think my hair colour is sweee la! hahaha.

Tavis you look like a small kid -.-

I feel so... fucked up. Cause this 2 words sum up everything. Hahah.

Anyw, yesterday went to school for RVM and i regretted going! It's so bloody boring i really felt like sleeping. Zzz. Went for RA tutorial which end 50mins -.- Really.... Speechless. Finally saw Jewel in school ! Oh man we gotta meet up soon eh! Imissyou!

Went Simei with Fauziana, Tavis and Sab. Fauziana went home after that, we went for KFC. Fulfilling. (Y) After that they went to my house to slack till evening. Watched the japanese prank shows and all those funny things. FUCKING funny, we kept laughing non-stop. =/ Oh man. Hahah.

Went off to tamp and met up with Xueqian, Elson and Samuel. Xueqian is the noisiest of course, they went to eat at S11, then we walk over dnknw where to slack. & i got screened by the police ! First time sio. HAHA. & i thought Sab's gonna get caught for smoking again. HAHA. Anyw, walked back to S11 ate with Ker&Brian. Then they went off while we went somewhere else to slack. Played games. Fun sio. Hahah.

Xueqian is still full of nonsense srsly. Cannot stand him. Even Sab also keep laughing. Even his own friends also keep laughing. LOL. He's like the joker.

Played dice and it was so fun! Hahah. At first Elson keep kena, then after that is Sab alrdy. HAHAHA. & that xueqian got so many ideas on his mind! What a friend i have. HAHA.

Played cards after that, not that fun actually cause everyone was tired alrdy. Left with Xueqian & Samuel, and he still can make me laugh even when I'm so tired! LOL. Went home, wash up and sleep. So so tired. Stomach was hurting since yesterday night & today i had diarrhoea twice. ):

Felt like vomitting. So i guess I'm gonna go see a doctor later.

I don't feel good at all. Sometimes i wonder, am i too rush ?

I feel like crying but i know i shouldn't.

I miss Shawnniiieezcxzczxcz. When can i see you again? It's as though we meet once a year only. T.T

I need space, i need to breathe. I feel tight. I feel very stress, why am i feeling stress every single moment? It's only when I'm laughing my heart out and that's the only time when i feel stressless.

Maybe i was wrong all along. Phrases are just to fool people.

What's with when you love someone, all you want them is to be happy. Isn't that so ? No it's no longer that case. You rather see the person suffer, feeling miserable and all the shits.

I'm so glad i have my friends. I know they are the ones who won't heck care me even when things goes wrong. (:

All curse the weather

Let's all curse the weather till it gives a satisfactory one. (:

Didn't went to school on Tuesday cause i overslept. >.<>

Went to school today for CommSk2, as usual for about 40mins -.- Bumped into Sylves again @ the bus stop and went to school together. After school took bus down TM to meet Sab's friend, Jonathan. Hahaha funny and lame guy i must say. Ate Mac tgt and i went down to Great World City for my job interview. Whoa it's like frickkin' far! I almost got lost cause i always overshot and i have a very very very bad sense of directions. HAHA.

The interview was alright and i hope i will be able to get that job because i travelled all the way down ALONE! Hahah.

Went home after that, and i found out that bus 5 goes there. Waste my money for topping up my Ez link card just to take train. Zzz.

Just finished RA tutorial, am i a good girl or what!? Hahah!

Gonna do my notes later, watch 2 hours of TV and sleep early ! (:

Sometimes i hate myself for being like this, like as though my life revolves around studies. So yucky. Eeewww.

But sometimes it's kinda good, cause i revise, do tutorials and notes. I'll look forward for the weekends because i hope it will take my mind off studies and also I'll be able to have maximum fun during weekends. :D

I really miss my cousin&keith a lot. ):

peektures

I don't like the colour contrast. I wan his colour. T.T

Awesome steamboat (Y)

I love my hp's camera. (:

Satisfied for a 2mp.

SimLim SQ weekend

HALO! Woots, feels like i damn long didn't blog. Hahah.
Friday went to school and it sucks really. People laughed @ me cause i wear full black for some reasons. >.< I know i stupid la, but don't like that right. Lol.
Skipped RVM since i got 2 days MC, went Tamp to find Ker&David. Hahah. Slacked @ teadot & saw my baby cousin! She's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute. The way she eat the cheesecake, the way she drink is so cute and gentle! Cannot stand her, but she don't let me carry her.): Hahaha. I shall see her soon! (Y)
Took bus down to Sembawang to make my stupid hp stuff. Got HTC SNAP! Woooooooo. Had dinner @ Bugis, the sliced fish porridge. Superb (Y)! Went to SimLim Sq walked around.
Went home & Babe start working on my PC. Wooo & now my PC can use the internet! ^^v
Babe stayed over and we watched deathnote 2 on tv tgt. Awesome show man. I love the god of death, they are so hot! Hahah.

Saturday.
Woke up and we nua-ed til late afternoon. Really DAMN nua. Then we went out that time, it started raining, WTF.
Went to bugis to change my laptop charger which we bought the previous day. While waiting for the rain stop, we had steamboat @ Bugis. Waaaaaaaaaa is super super super shiok. I think i will wanna go for it the 2nd time. Hahah. Walked over to SimLim Sq but we were too late. The shop closed. So we walked around Bugis then we took train home.
Babe stayed over again (Y) watched tv together. Hahah. Sweeeeeeeeeeet.

Sunday, woke up kinda early, had a little breakfast. Prepared and went to SimLim Sq AGAIN!! LOL. But we went to watch movie first, Jennifer's Body. Why she so hot?! Envy sial. After that ate @ Manhattan (?). I think not bad but fish&co. stil own. Hahah.
Went SimLimSq then he bought a lot of things, changed my charger, LCD monitor, speakers, thumbdrive & memory card. Wa chor uh. T.T Went back his house and he prepared everything.
I feel like dying on the way home. Hahah.

Thanks babe for everything and sorry for the troubles an everything. ):

Today went to school for stupid 50mins or even lesser. -.-
Submit proj then waited for Brian for FUCKING LONG. Zzz. Reached tamp mall & Tavis joined us. Had pizzahut for lunch. (Y) spam cheese. Hahah. Talked and slacked quite long in there. After that Sab went off for work. We went to 201 for prata. Slacked and talked now I'm home. I feel lazy to do my work. Zzzz. Gotta rush! BYE! (: